1976 Revisited

We all know that 1976 was the year that the Soweto uprisings started. The children, or as they are now known ‘learners’ (where on earth did that word come from?), refused to take instruction in Afrikaans. That was the start of the trouble.

Well, here we are in 2009 and those of us who speak what used once upon a time to be known as English, are now being subjected to similar and equally demeaning treatment – only that to which we are being subjected is more subtle, more insidious.

SABC TV’s channel no 3 has traditionally been reserved for English; from time to time there have been some fairly horrendous mistakes in pronunciation (but then you have to expect that when most of our continuity announcers come from another language background), and there have been a few times when programming left much to be desired. We have borne all those things with a certain amount of equanimity; after all, you can always turn off the TV if it gets too much or too bad.

However, in the last two weeks a new and worrying trend has, silently and almost imperceptibly, appeared. On Thursday nights we are now being treated to a really awful piece of programming entirely in (you guessed it) Afrikaans, and on Fridays we have the slightly more palatable De Kat (also in Afrikaans).

I would assume, therefore, that channel no 3 is no longer exclusively in English.
Come all you payers of licences and critics of the SABC, gird your loins, pluck up your courage, and in true South African fashion, lets burn down every government building we can find; lets lay waste to every school, every electrical appliance shop; lets turn over every police vehicle and march against the guns of the SABC. We have as much right to our language and heritage as those who demonstrated against Afrikaans in 1976!!!

Our rights are being violated. In popular terminology, we are ‘suffering’. Our language, our heritage, our very culture is being assaulted and belittled by those very people who found the enforced teaching in Afrikaans so unsavoury. We have a major bus strike in Johannesburg, the threat of a nation-wide strike of doctors, taxi operators threatening hellfire and brimstone if the bus rapid-transport system is introduced, political figures shouting unpleasant and defamatory epithets at our new administrator of the Cape (Helen Zille), and threats of legal action because a certain body does not recognise her right to choose her own cabinet as she sees fit – so lets do our bit and demonstrate against those in power at Auckland Park who see fit to quietly drop the occasional Afrikaans programme into our hallowed English station. GO GET THEM – VRYSTAAT!!

Euthanasia - Let's Have the Conversation

This morning (15/05/2009) there was a very interesting programme on SABC about this, and I can’t help but feel that the programme only scratched the surface of this fascinating question. Of course, there are good reasons both for and against this, and let me say at the outset that voluntary euthanasia, if it were made legal in this country, could be abused. But then so can most laws be abused if one really wants to find a way….

I think that the strongest argument in favour of this is the one postulated by one of the callers: if we can make an educated decision in favour of euthanizing a favourite pet, then why can’t the same benefit be offered to a human being – a relative, a friend, one who is dear to us? In the case of a pet, we are often called upon to make a very hard decision – hard for us because it means the final end of our relationship with that pet.
Normally we would be guided in this instance by the vet, who would be able to tell us what the chances are for that animal to make a full recovery. We weigh the chances against the expense (because veterinary treatment is expensive) and we make, sometimes reluctantly, a decision.

Why do we not look upon people in the same way? Let me give you an example:
Recently my favourite cat was diagnosed with a potentially life-threatening disease and so, at considerable expense I had him treated because he was still young, and if he could survive he could still look forward to a full lifetime of fun a games in his own feline way. He underwent the treatment and came out of it somewhat better, but not quite the cat that he had been. I only had him back at home for ten days when he started going downhill again and, after taking him back to the vet for further investigation and treatment, I was told that even if he survived a fresh round of expense and suffering, he would never really be able to live a normal life and would have to he under constant care and supervision. I had no choice but to have him put to sleep (as we say). For those of you who have never been this route, it is impossible to explain the angst and soul-searching that this decision puts upon us, and the pain of final separation; but it has to be off-set against the animal’s future. We cannot make a decision based on our own wishes or needs; we have to put the animal first.

My mother, on the other hand, had been diagnosed with breast cancer some years previous to her death. She had continued to live a normal life, undergoing regular check-ups and treatments, and was quite happy, but, knowing what she did as a qualified nurse, she must have known what the final outcome would be. It was made clear to me when she left the day-clinic after one of her check-ups clutching a bottle of morphine solution. In the last months of her life she gradually became weaker and less interested in her surroundings, to the point, where, finally, she was bed-ridden and unable to attend to even her most basic functions. I know how much she hated this, and how pointless she considered the whole exercise to be, because she knew that it could only end in death. On several occasions I looked at the stock of morphine tablets, the bottle of solution, and I asked myself should I put an end to her suffering. If she had been a cat or a dog, I would have done just that; but because she was a human being, I went to every length I could to delay her final demise. Money evaporated like butter against the sun; helpers came to the house and massaged her, dressed her bedsores, chatted to her, while I ran up and down the passage with vomit-bowls and various medications – all of which did little to alleviate her suffering. She was not in great pain, but she must have felt all alone as she faced inevitable death. On several occasions she actually asked me to put an end to her suffering, but I couldn’t.

She ended her life in a nursing home, unable even to turn herself, unaware for a lot of the time of her surroundings, at times unable to recognise me when I visited; it was not a life, nor was it a death. It was something worse, because all she had were her thoughts and fears, her knowledge that sooner or later she would have to cross the threshold into the unknown – and I’m sure she must have thought about it a lot and wondered what lay ahead. Not being a particularly religious person, she was unable to appeal to her God for help; she had only herself.

I often think that the pain and suffering she went through, and the agonies of doubt and fear of loss that I suffered, could so easily have been avoided by the simple administration of a few pills. I would have done it without hesitation for a pet, but I could not do it for her.

I can only hope that when I become terminal, bed-ridden, useless, and alone with my thoughts, someone will be kind enough to slip me an overdose and let me drift peacefully away; that I shall be spared the mental anguish of remembering what life used to be like and off-setting it against the now, and shall be spared the suffering I would go through, as well as seeing the looks of hopelessness or feigned jollity on the faces of my visitors.

We tend to be kind to animals but seldom ever to people because our whole culture, our upbringing, tells us that everyone has the right to life. But surely, whoever thought that one out didn’t mean life in its barest, clinical form, but life as it should be lived.

When we are told that a mother or father, a spouse, a loved-one, has no chance of recovery and can only look forward to a constant downhill struggle like this, even if it does not involve a great deal of physical pain, do we not have the right to allow them to die with dignity? Is it not an act of supreme selfishness that we keep them alive at all costs simply because we are afraid of the final moment of parting? This is surely an instance where we should put their interests above our own, and where we should be able to do so legally and without fear of reprisal.

In my mother’s final weeks, I prayed for death as keenly as she must have done. Each day became yet another treadmill which had to be faced, another uncertainty, another worry, and there was no hope of any pleasant outcome.

Let us put criminals aside; as I said at the beginning, all laws can be abused in one way or another, and this law would be no exception. Yet it is illegal to kill another person in any way at the moment, so there would effectively be no change; the criminal would only need to fear that his act would be found out and that he would be made to pay the price.
But surely, someone who, with love and kindness, administered the overdose, or disconnected the life-support systems, can hardly be regarded as a murderer? Are they not acting in the best interests of the patient and doing what the patient most wants them to do?

I will leave you with a snippet of poetry which my mother used to quote when she knew the end was inevitable:

“Darkling I listen; and, for many a time
I have been half in love with easeful Death,
Call’d him soft names in many a mused rhyme,
To take into the air my quiet breath;
Now more than ever seems it rich to die,
To cease upon the midnight with no pain…….”

(Keats; Ode to a Nightingale)

The Zuma Inauguration

I swore that I wouldn't listen to the radio or watch this spectacle on TV because I am heartily sick of the fanfare and noise that this whole thing has caused in this country. However, I was amused to read just now that the whole thing was marred by a downpour of rain, causing all the hallowed guests to run for cover. Serves them all right!!
One thing, however, has to be said: the stupendous amount of money that has been lavished on this ceremony leaves one speechless. For a humble man who was voted into power by the great unwashed masses of this country, Zuma has excelled himself in hypocrisy; whilst his supporters take shelter in their shacks, watching this amazing sight on their TVs (very often stolen), powered by electricity which is illegally re-routed from legal connections, they are no doubt cheering and drinking the health of the new president.
However, they would not know the taste of French Champagne at R100+- per bottle; theirs will be a diet of Black Label or cheap whisky. They are unconcerned that the cost of such an undertaking would have provided them with many many homes, or could have been used to good ends in elevating the poor. No, for some reason they regard Zuma as some kind of hero, to be addressed only as "Comrade". I rather fear that they may receive their just desserts when he drives his new administration into top gear and forgets all those who voted for him.
It is interesting to note, also, that while South Africa has taken a 'holier than thou' attitude to King Mswati of Swaziland and has banned him from receiving any of the good things of this country, someone like Mugabe, whose litany of human rights abuse can never be covered by a simple article like this one, has been present at this 'do'. Makes you think, doesn't it?

Women and Child Abuse

A great deal is always said on the radio and on TV about the abuse of women and children in this country, and many talking heads have a great deal to say. However, it seems to me that they are missing one of the main elements of this problem: the content of programmes to which we, the viewing and listening public, are subjected.

It is a known fact that alcohol is one of the main factors causing this abuse and it is widely accepted that our per capita consumption of alcohol in this country is the highest in the world. Why then do we allow alcohol to be freely advertised in both media? We have succeeded in banning all tobacco adverts, and other such harmful substances, but we continue to be assailed with all manner of adverts for beers, brandies, whiskies, and the like.

The content of our TV programmes is, I feel, also very much to blame. We are given a diet of unleavened violence on E-TV (wrestling, third-rate Hollywood movies) and are daily battered with appalling sitcoms on all channels. Most of our stations preface their broadcasts with a warning that children should only watch under adult supervision, or that the following programme contains bad language, violence, explicit sex, or may be offensive to some viewers, but I doubt that anyone ever reads or takes notice of these warnings. If this were the case, then most of our programmes would never be aired. I would further suggest that all political broadcasts, especially those containing shots of JZ badly singing his Umshini Wami song, or dancing foolishly in front of a microphone, should also bear the warning that the following programme may contain content which is offensive to some viewers. I think this sort of thing is offensive to most of us!!

So, people, lets clean up our act and see where the real causes of the problem lie.

A Trip to Robben Island

The Guesthouse is still in good repair

The old chapel on the Island

A general state of dilapidation and dereliction

(This is an excerpt from a much longer story, but deserves to be published here.)

Less than one week later found us on another trip which had taken some organisation and to which we all looked forward considerably. We hurtled down the highway towards Cape Town, where we parked the car at The Waterfront and sat in the shade of one of the large hotels and had a late breakfast. I went off and collected the tickets for the boat, which I had reserved some time earlier, and shortly after twelve midday found us waiting eagerly in a large room which was somewhat redolent of the arrivals hall of the international airport.

Clumps of tourists of all colours and nationalities milled around aimlessly looking at a barrage of photographs of political prisoners and their families, most of whom were now members of parliament and, to boot amazingly rich, as they stared back from the walls, defiant of an old order which had long-since passed away. Many of the names were utterly unfamiliar to the onlookers, but that of Nelson Mandela stood out; everyone knew who he was, and most of the sightseers knew his history.

Soon after twelve-thirty a whistle blew and a queue formed at the door to the jetty. One by one we handed over our tickets and walked slowly out into the sunshine and up the gangplank. For some reason, the large tri-maran which was supposed to be in service on this trip, had failed to materialise, and so we were herded onto a rather lovely old boat with lots of wood and brass, but which had to have been built sometime in the 1940s. Unlike the tri-maran, though, it was fairly small.

Ian and Heather took their seats inside the cabin and looked, somewhat fearfully, out at the sunshine on the afterdeck. Ron had climbed up on top of the cabin where she had found a seat quite easily, and I stood on the stern, camera in hand, eagerly waiting for the boat to pull away from the quay. We chugged easily out across the harbour over sluggish waters and watched with amusement how the seals basked in whatever sunshine they could find. Some were lying on the tyres surrounding the quays, some on rocks, and some could be seen proudly slipping beneath the tranquil surface of the green water. We ran smoothly through the harbour mouth and were soon riding long, gentle swells as we headed out to sea. The chatter ebbed and flowed over the sound of the diesel engines and there was a mood of eager anticipation amongst most of the passengers.

However, the swells, which at first had been long and lazy, gradually became larger and more urgent and the boat began to crest each one with a labouring sound of engines and then to corkscrew interestingly into the trough which followed. Those of us who had decided to stand in the stern soon had to hold on to whatever solid fixtures we could find in order to keep our footing and maintain our balance. This was all rather fun as far as I was concerned because I had never suffered from sea-sickness, but for some of the passengers it must have been a bit of an ordeal. However, it ceased to be quite so funny when one or two large swells actually washed over the stern, soaking our feet and legs right up to the knees. The boat was now pitching around to such an extent that it would have been impossible to move to a drier spot, so we had no choice but to stand and grin rather sheepishly as our feet were washed again and again with the boiling green waters of the Atlantic.

Just short of one hour later, we arrived, somewhat wetter, certainly wiser, in the small harbour of Robben Island, where we disembarked and were herded without further delay into a waiting bus. I had made this trip in 1994 when the island was first opened to the public and so felt I knew what to expect. It had been a pristinely clean and brilliantly white place, the chalk of its land reflecting the brightness of the day, its small houses all neatly painted, its gardens tended, and its ancient cars, most of which had never returned to the mainland, rotting away in silence by the side of the road. It was with some dismay, then, that I noticed that the same bus which we had used in 1994 and which had been in pristine condition, was still in use, if somewhat scuffed and elderly by now. Ron and I took our seats near the back.

The tour guide clambered aboard and the engine started. The guide turned out to be a rather squat black lady in a sort of uniform who barked at us through a microphone in a gabble of English that even the English would have found hard to follow. She seemed blissfully unaware that many of the tourists on board could only manage the most simple phrases in that language, and since there was no interpreter, she soon lost the attention of many people on the bus. Whereas we had had, in 1994, one of the prison guards who regaled us with some interesting stories about the island and his charges, she was obviously an employee of the company which now ran the island as a museum, and it soon became apparent that she was highly politicised. Even worse, she seemed to lack even the smallest vestiges of a sense of humour. For ten minutes, while the engine ticked over and we looked around the empty harbour area, she rattled away about Robert Sobukhwe and I was quite sure that most people on the bus had never heard of him.

‘Who was Sobukhwe?’ Ron asked me, at sea, like the rest of the bus.

I had to think hard before I gave her an answer.

‘I think he was head of the Pan Africanist Congress, but I’m not sure.’

‘What about Nelson Mandela?’ she asked.

But there was little or no mention of this icon; indeed for our learned tour guide, he seemed never to have existed. It seemed in some ways to be redolent of the re-naming of Johannesburg International Airport: instead of naming it after someone or something which would have meaning for the foreigner, the government had decided to call it O.R.Tambo – again a name which had little meaning for most people.

The bus lurched forward and drove slowly through the village, stopping for us to take photos of the old leper colony and the two churches and grumbling past the local village street which was now very dilapidated, its houses badly in need of paint, washing waving from lines, and deer nuzzling around the dry grasses of its verges. The only building so far which was in good condition was the guesthouse, which, unlike 1994, was now off-bounds to us as it was used by members of the government. We stopped for a few minutes to admire a large hole in the quarry in which Mandela and so many others had spent so much of their time, but once again, his name was scarcely mentioned by our guide, who rattled away, oblivious of the fact that few of us understood a word she said, about several people whose existence even I had forgotten. She seemed to be totally out of touch with the mood of her audience and utterly unaware of what interested them. The significance of the quarry was lost to most of the people on the bus. One tended to be reminded of the kind of propaganda to which the white population had been exposed for so many years under Nationalist rule.

About thirty minutes into what increasingly began to look like a boring tour, we pulled up in the middle of what was clearly a rubbish dump which boasted, however, two clearly marked toilets. We were told we would stop here for five minutes so that those of us who wanted could use these, and the rest could take photographs of the fine view of Table Mountain. There was indeed a good view but the surroundings were most unappetising; there was no café, no souvenir shop, nowhere for us to spend our Rands, only a derelict and rusty building on the edge of the water, and two toilets.

‘Talk about ‘things ain’t what they used to be’, I said to Ron as we looked around the rubbish dump.

We were once more herded onto the bus and driven fairly fast back towards the jail. In 1994 the tour had lasted some three hours and had taken in the gun emplacements which had been built for the second World War, and had also included a complete trip round the island. We had seen buck and many many penguins, but these were no longer on the itinerary. In those days, however, we had not been able to see inside the prison, because this was still in use.

The bus ground to a halt outside the prison buildings and we were once more herded out onto the hot tarmac. A long line formed and we filed past the cell used by Nelson Mandela for so many years of his imprisonment. What should have been the highpoint of the tour for so many people was no more than a tiny room with a bed, a desk, and a barred window.

‘Ja, well, no, fine,’ I found myself saying, almost under my breath.

‘What did you say?’ Ron asked, looking inquiringly at me.

‘Doesn’t matter.’

We were herded into a long, hot and rather foetid room where someone regaled us of the hardships of being a political prisoner on the island. Since he himself had been imprisoned there for some time, his words had a meaning and a poignance which was not lost on his audience. He also spoke a much clearer and better English and so was easier to follow. For the first time the audience seemed to be taking an interest in what he had to say. However, the heat was oppressive, the lecture was very long, and the room was noticeably devoid of any seating, so many of the group began to look somewhat tired and strained. It was with some relief, therefore, that we were herded once more into the sunlight and told we had less than five minutes in which to visit the seals which nested next to the harbour. To see these in the time allotted was quite impossible, so we shambled along on our way to the waiting ferry.

I had been watching with some alarm, as we made our sluggish way around the island, how the tablecloth on Table Mountain had been growing steadily during the day; I now saw that it looked decidedly ugly, and that meant only one thing: the sea was going to be very rough. Obviously the authorities had taken note of this and instead of our trusty old boat waiting for us, the old Susan Kruger, the ferry that used to make the trip ever day when the island was still a prison, had been pressed into service once more. The Susan Kruger was a fair size – more the size of a small cross-channel ferry in Europe – and she was waiting for us by the quayside. As we filed aboard we were warned not to sit up on deck as we were likely to get wet; we were also asked to remain in our seats once the boat left the harbour and not to leave them until we were safe and sound inside Cape Town harbour again.

Ian and Heather, perhaps afraid of sea-sickness, perhaps deaf, had chosen to sit outside on the upper deck and so we saw nothing of them until we entered the harbour almost an hour later. We left the relative calmness of Robben Island and headed out for the open sea. Ron and I were sitting opposite each other at a table next to one of the large portholes; I think she was somewhat afraid of sea-sickness herself, but even I was not really prepared for the trip that awaited us. As we headed into open water great green waves with white crests battered the superstructure of the boat from all sides; every so often one of them found its way down the steps to wash around our feet. It was something like being inside a washing-machine with the cycle set on ‘high’ – the only thing missing being the soap, but one could imagine even this as the waves foamed past our window, often blotting out the view entirely. The boat heaved and shuddered its way from crest to crest, sometimes tossing badly in the troughs, and conversation was almost impossible as it was totally drowned out by the sound of the diesel engines pounding away at the sea for all they were worth. People on the other side of the lounge seemed to rise and fall in an alarming way, and every so often the bottom seemed to drop out of our world as we crested one wave and crashed into another. This had become a ride worthy of the best funfair but the only thing was that, unlike a funfair which you know is only going to last a few moments, this was good for almost an hour. It was no surprise, therefore, to see stewards urgently running around with paper bags in their hands, which they gave to several of the passengers, who were beginning to look decidedly the worse for wear.

Nothing could have prepared either of us, however, for the sight of Ian and Heather when they appeared on the pier in Cape Town harbour. They were both absolutely wringing wet from head to toe and they both looked frozen. I began to laugh at the sorry sight.

‘What on earth persuaded you to sit outside?’ I asked as we walked slowly up the quay.

‘Nobody told us it would be that bad’, Ian replied, wringing out as much of his clothing as he could decently manage.

‘We sat out there because we felt that we were less likely to feel ill’ Heather remarked, lamely, taking off her shoes and shaking the water out of them.

Ron, although rather shaken, was still quite dry.

‘That was quite an experience,’ she said, somewhat ambiguously.

‘You mean the trip or the boat?’ I asked.

‘The boat mainly. I always wondered what it would feel like to be inside a washing machine, so now I know,’ she laughed.

We stopped off at one of the many restaurants on the Waterfront to have a restorative drink. Ian and Heather dripped quietly over the white plastic seat and onto the floor and the talk was largely made up of the sort of hysteria that people evince when they have been through a rather frightening ordeal and have survived. We all laughed like drains.

(Robben Island, once pristine and glowing, is now in a rather sad state of dereliction and dilapidation. Only two buildings remain in good repair: the guesthouse and the gaol; the rest is really rather sad and the area to which we were taken to take photos of the mainland was actually quite appalling.)

The Family

This is my daughter (of whom I'm immensely proud. She's a bigshot in the government of NSW in Australia.

Top left: the last family photo of my mother, my daughter, my cousin and myself.

Top right: a quick shot of me, Ian, and his girfriend Heather, before we set sail for Robben Island.

A little postscript: my mother passed away shortly after this last photo was taken; she had had breast cancer for many years and finally succumbed to it on 18th August 2008. I miss her dearly as we were much more than just mother and son. We were friends and shared most of our interests and, perhaps because of that, always had a very close relationship. She was a talented artist, a qualified nurse and midwife, and a teacher of some note. She always believed that there was something better round the next corner, and lived her life on a note of constant optimism.

My cousin, Ian, lives in UK and is very talented with his hands, making all sorts of things; he is an excellent craftsman and something of a perfectionist, but can also be very funny.

My daughter lives in Sydney with her husband. She has a great love of art, is a talented musician, and loves animals. She is tall, beautiful, very motherly without being a matron, and is a very dear friend as well as being very cherished as a daughter.

My Animals

SHANE

TITO

MRS KITT

Just a few pics of my pets at the moment: Shane is getting old now. He will be 10 at the end of this year, but has a lovely gentle nature and is a very faithful friend. He's my shadow, and woe betide anyone who tries to come between us!

Tito is now 3 1/2 and is a very talkative and noisy cat. He loves catching anything that moves, but seldom kills his catches, preferring rather to bring them to me for approval. The claws, like all Siameses, are really very destructive and it's impossible to have any decent furniture. But furniture can always be replaced; Tito can't.

Mrs.Kitt (as far as I know) is now nearly 12 and has been around for a long time. She has also had several different homes, but she has always come back to me, one way or another. She's a very quiet cat and is often quite invisible, except at night when she likes to hog the bed!

A Bad Day

Life is never as bad as it seems, it seems. I got out of bed dreading today: I had so many things to do and then people coming for art lessons this afternoon, and the daily grind just disappeared into the distance with no let-up in sight.

However, the first thing that happened: the art lessons were cancelled. So, having mentally re-arranged my day, I set off for the post office and then to the vet to see how my favourite cat was doing. He has been in hospital for more than two weeks with one problem after another. and I feared that he might not be any better. However, as soon as I crossed the threshhold into the vet's rooms and my voice was heard, a distant yowling started from the bowels of the building. I went straight to his cage and found, to my great joy, that he was looking a great deal better and was becoming his old noisy self again.

The vet appeared and announced that I had come to take him home. Given the welcome that I received, I could hardly leave him there, so, basket and all, cat was brought home where he was put on my bed, made much of, and promptly went to sleep.

Having overcome that obstacle (and that one was the one I feared most), I then bundled the spare dog into the car with its food and took it to another friend to look after for another three weeks. I went shopping for special cat food and came home filled with new life and a desire to put the whole place to rights.

I have sorely missed that cat and am very pleased that he's back where he belongs. Now I just have to deal with the rest of the day, but the sun is shining.........